My first day all alone in Philadelphia...

Man!!

When I look back at this day or the days I have gone though I cant help but feel brave about it!I did not know anyone in the country I was in...I did no know how I and wher I was going to stay after this stay of 7 days..I had no contact close enough than myself...And above it all,I had to find my center and take my exam!

I got up early in the morning...donot remember why though!I guess it must be the "Tummy-Lord"!!!I dont think anybody cant resent the Tummy Lord!As far as my memory goes,I definitely couldnt!So I got up and looked in the refrigerator hoping to find something to satisy the lord...Naah!My bad day....there was nothing in the fridge!Disappointed,I sat back in the chair and then after a while as if I was enlightened,I realised slowly this is not the closed and secure confines of my sweet little home in my home town where all I had to do was get up and hog!

Suddenly,I felt like a loser who did nothing at home as I ddnt know how to make anything beyond a simple tea!I started looking with great awe towards my mother and felt the urge to call up and tell her how much I wanted to thank her for all those meals and goodies which went stupidly unnoticed and unrecognised..and she took all that with a lovely smile on her face...I miss you Mom!But then,that wasnt going to be enough to fill my tummy.

I did get some theplas (these are methi rotis which can last for a long time),so quickly opened my bag and took them out.Then what do I do?I couldnt find a heating pan....How do I heat them?I had no idea..Then in one corner of the room,there was a small thing peeping at me from a cloth cover..I lifted it up and wolaa!!A microwave!!I had forgotten about that!But now with me so close to making it finally through this morning ordeal,another lesso had to be learnt!I had never used a microwave before...

Strange as it may sound,way back in my country,in my house,we never use these things...if we needed soemthing to eat,mom would make it fresh for us...so never got a chance on this stupid appliances!This is a price this country and now my country too,slowly is paying in the name of technology...people are breaking away from families,they are searching for their own individuality,forgetting that in the process of finding nothing,they are losing evrything!The invention of the microwave though may seem trivial at this juncture and in modern life but it is an extension of the same process...not in the name of comfort...in the guise of supporting oneself without any liabilities...If cooking was a pleasure,why did it get invented in the first place!Anyways,I understand this is not a very valid argument here,but my heart does bleed for families broken up and technology supporting the individuals individually...if you know you couldnt live alone,you wouldnt break from ur family too..I know that is a different way to think of the problem,but if you look at it from a rational point of view,it would make some sense...Technology should have made mans life easier but where ever it has infiltrated,everything has been scattered.It has brought the world coser they say,but who the hell is closer?Every person here is left to live on his own...fuck his own life and ruin a lot of others.Thats because there is no one to tell this idiot that he his doing wrong!I feel glad that in my home country,we are still cohesive when we come to families.And believe me,though I was struggling there in terms of needs,I was content...that may not be the case here i feel..

Anyways,I do tend to wander off to these issues at times....never mind..but hey then,what the hell?This is my blog after all!! ;)

So,then after a few tries and burning a couple of y precious theplas and also playing with the buttons for a while,I finally had my first morsel in the US....mmmmm...deliciousss....sss....but whats this?....it still tastes like the same home food,eh? (pun intended)

I had a hearty meal and then got fresh...

Then was the big time,I had to go to find out all alone in this very big and beautiful city where my center was,where I was to take my exam...My friend had given me some preliminary directions but u can imagine how u feel when you are lost in a maze...Or the feeling of you falling in trouble for no reason...a bit of fear,a bit of pride...Its hard to put it in words what exactly I felt but I did have a rush of emotions as I walked passed the beautiful streets of Philadelphia.I donot know about the other places but I really fell in love with this city!